Eyes flutter,
Open wide.
A haze of light cascading the
lens.
Confusion.
Panic.
Who?
Where? Who? What? Where?
WhoWhoWhere?
HooHoo?
Hoo
am I?
Where
am I?
What? What? What is this?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be
still. Be calm.
Don’t
move.
But
who?
Wait…
Okay.
Think.
Think.
Think!
ThinkThinkThinkThinkThinkTHINK!
Hoo?What?HOOHOOHOO?
Nothing!
***
Eyes shift.
Left, right, up, down.
Bright.
Light.
Sunlight.
Daylight.
Morning?
Frosted French doors
Refracting, reflecting.
Roof. Walls. Bed.
Bed.
Bed.
Bedroom.
Soft
pillow, warm blanket.
Safe.
Where?
Where?
WhereWhereHOO?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be still. Be calm
Who
am I?
Think.
Search. Seek.
Rummage.
Dig.
Delve.
Push
and pull.
Excavate!
Nothing!
***
Eyes wide,
Rapid breath.
Be
still. Be calm.
Doctor.
Doctor?
Doctor.
Which
doctor?
Witchdoctor?
Any
doctor. A doctor. Some doctor.
Anyone
will do.
Will
they know?
Yes.
Will
they know me?
WILL
THEY KNOW ME?
Panting lungs
In/out, up/down.
Heart beating a tattoo.
WilltheywilltheywilltheywilltheyWILLTHEYKNOWWHOIAM?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be
still. Be calm.
They
will know what to do.
***
Move.
Move?
Yes
Yes.
Move.
Eyes shift down.
Dips and tips and valleys,
Human form.
Attached. Connected.
Limp.
Body.
Still.
Very
still.
Move.
Move.
How?
Think.
Think?
Think…
“Move”
Nothing.
Nothing?
Nothing.
Not
moving…
Not
moving. NOT MOVING. NOT/
Still, stiff, stick, straight.
Who?
Who? Who? WHOHOOHOOHOO?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be
still. Be calm.
Soft.
Slow. Steady.
Sunlight.
Morning.
Bed.
Safe.
Safe.
Yes,
safe.
Think.
Yes,
think.
twitching finger,
A restless arm,
A waking spine.
I
remember!
I
remember!
I remember!
***
Another bed.
Another sun.
I remember!
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