Sunday, 20 January 2019

AWAKE



Eyes flutter,
Open wide.
A haze of light cascading the lens.
Confusion.
Panic.
Who? Where? Who? What? Where?
WhoWhoWhere?
HooHoo?
Hoo am I?
Where am I?
What?           What?        What is this?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be still. Be calm.
Don’t move.
But who?
Wait…                                            
Okay.
Think.
Think.
Think!
ThinkThinkThinkThinkThinkTHINK!
Hoo?What?HOOHOOHOO?
Nothing!

***





Eyes shift.
Left, right, up, down.
Bright.
Light.
Sunlight.
Daylight.
Morning?
Frosted French doors
Refracting, reflecting.
Roof. Walls. Bed.
Bed.
Bed. Bedroom.
Soft pillow, warm blanket.
Safe.
Where?
Where? WhereWhereHOO?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
 Be still. Be calm
Who am I?
Think. Search. Seek.
Rummage.
Dig. Delve.
Push and pull.
Excavate!
Nothing!

***




Eyes wide,
Rapid breath.
Be still. Be calm.
Doctor.
Doctor?
Doctor.
Which doctor?
Witchdoctor?
Any doctor. A doctor. Some doctor.
Anyone will do.
Will they know?
Yes.
Will they know me?
WILL THEY KNOW ME?
Panting lungs
In/out, up/down.
Heart beating a tattoo.
WilltheywilltheywilltheywilltheyWILLTHEYKNOWWHOIAM?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be still. Be calm.
They will know what to do.

***




Move.
Move?
Yes
Yes. Move.
Eyes shift down.
Dips and tips and valleys,
Human form.
Attached. Connected.
Limp.
Body.
Still.
Very still.
Move.
Move.
How?
Think.
Think?
Think…
“Move”
Nothing.
Nothing?
Nothing.
Not moving… 
Not moving. NOT MOVING. NOT/
Still, stiff, stick, straight.
Who? Who? Who? WHOHOOHOOHOO?
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Be still. Be calm.
Soft. Slow. Steady.
Sunlight. Morning.
Bed.
Safe.
Safe.
Yes, safe.
Think.
Yes, think.
twitching finger,
A restless arm,
A waking spine.
I remember!
I remember!
I remember!

***

Another bed.
Another sun.
I remember!

Sunday, 13 January 2019

MONOTONY




tweet, cheep, chatter, chirp
burr, crack, thud, clunk
flapping, napping
swearing, tearing
the sounds
of summer
come at me
in stereo

***

birds in trees
feeding, flying, flittering
in the leaves
a grey monolith
rising from the rooftops
looming over the trees
both stare at me
daring a response

***

the mint wafts
into my nose
the basil intrudes on the left
the aroma wars have begun

***




pink
purple
red
orange
green beneath my soul
under my hands
under my eyes
the daffodil high in the sky

***

we see with
two eyes
hear with
two ears
smell with
two nostrils
we touch with
two hands
walk with
two feet
Breathe through     
two lungs
yet we eat with one mouth
feel with one heart
birth with one womb

***


to live
is stereo
left
right
weakness
might
surplus
and there is need
but there is only one world
and we are all one race

***
and the race never ends
and the race is never won
and the race is never lost

***

hard
soft
light
dark
reality
dreams
nature
sythetics
synthesized
into a mono track
one reality
one mind
one body
life as we know it, Jim

Wednesday, 14 November 2018

Australian Politics

I attended a couple of workshops on adapting Shakespeare recently. The first (with Sapidah Kian) was focussed on creating a piece of physical theatre. The second (with Mark Wilson) was a broader, conceptual approach. During this one we had some time to do some writing. Here the five little ambiguous scenes I wrote. I call it 'Australian Politics'.

SCENE 1
A: It comes.
B: It can't.
A: Too late. It comes.
B: I'm not ready.
A: What do you need? It comes.
B: I don't know.
A: Prepare. It comes.
B: You must stop it.
A: I can't. It comes.
B: How did it star?
A: You were there...and now it comes.
B: What should I do?
A: There is nothing you can do. It comes.
B: When will it get here?
A: You don't know?
B: Do you know?
A: I know it comes.
B: Is that enough?
A: Enough for now.
B: Is now enough?
A: Enough for who?
B: You.
A: You?
B: I need more. It's too soon.
A: Will it ever be the right time?
B: Never.
A: Forever.

SCENE 2
A: Who's turn is it.
B: I threw last.
A: But I threw first.
B: That is irrelevant.
A: We must count backwards.
B: We don't need to go back that far.
A: We must see the whole picture.
B: Just be in the moment.
A: How will we ever know we are right?
B: How can we be wrong?
A: I don't know what to do .
B: We can't just do nothing.
A: But what if we make a mistake?
B: Hesitation is a mistake.
A: Care is required.
B: Stillness is death.

SCENE 3
A: Where are we going?
B: Where are we now?
A: We're not where we were supposed to be.
B: Where is that?
A: Not here.
B: You are here.
A: I am not staying.
B: Where are you going?
A: I don't know.
B: Then how do you know it's not here?
A: What's not here?
B: Whatever it is you are looking for.
A: Who says I am looking for something?
B: You do.
A: I am looking for somewhere.
B: Where are you going?
A: I don't know.

SCENE 4
A: Look at that.
B: What do you see?
A: Can you see it?
B: Point to it.
A: It's there. See?
B: I can't see anything.
A: Open your eyes.
B: I'm scared.
A: You don't know what I am pointing to.
B: That's not what I am afraid of.
A: What are you afraid of?
B: I don't know.
A: Take a risk.
B: Can you die of fright?
A: Can you?
B: My heart is racing.
A: You have nothing to be afraid of.
B: You don't know that.
A: I know you are afraid right now.
B: Yes.
A: If you open your eyes you will see there is nothing to fear.

SCENE 5
A: Just what I was looking for.
B: That's mine.
A: Have you bought it already?
B: Not yet.
A: Then it's not yours.
B: I had my hands on it.
A: Now I have my hands on it.
B: Be a doll.
A: I am nobody's puppet.
B: Let go.
A: Make me.
B: Is this how you behave in public?
A: Is this how you speak to an adult?
B: I want it more than you.
A: How can you possibly know that?
B: It will look better on me.
A: I am not buying it for myself.
B: You are not buying it at all.