Wednesday, 20 July 2022

KATJE LILLY EKATERINA

My love, my heart, reason to live
I've lost you. How can I forgive
Myself? I can't believe I did
Not stop you, find you, God forbid!
I made a promise - swore a vow -
Nothing would ever hurt you now.
But in that moment when you ran
Playing, teasing, I lacked a plan.
All you want is a bigger life.
You have it now but you're in strife,
Lost in a world so cold and dark,
I cannot find you. There's no ark
For you to find, for me to spy.
You do that thing you do and I
Just do not have the speed, the moves
To chase you down, to climb the rooves
And so I wait. Find hope I must.
Someone will find you, make you trust
In them to bring you home to me,
To warmth, to food, to your safety.
A place we lie and love and sleep, 
Where now I take my time to weep.
I need you so. I cry. I pray
You will come back to me someday.
Make it tonight my little girl.
Against your warmth I long to furl.
To hear you purr is what I seek.
You lay my tum against your cheek,
The softest creature in the world.
My heart is shattered. Pain is hurled
At me, a non-stop barrage
Whilst life demands of you courage.
When will our sad stars realign?
Come back to me. I need a sign!
I cannot say goodbye just yet.
I cannot give you up, my pet!
I pack your things. I hesitate
To box it up - the final crate...
Each ball, each tray, each window seat.
I still believe again we'll meet.
I hope my fate includes you in.
This is the battle I must win!
I will not stop though moves slow down.
Always you're the jewel in my crown.
But if the stars insist I fail
I will forever tell your tale
My pretty little sunshine face, 
So soft, so sweet. You took the place
In my heart so few could pierce.
So gentle, scared, you could be fierce.
You kept me safe, you made me laugh.
Without you I am less than half.
Please do come back, give in, be found.
I cease to live without you 'round.
The door's ajar. Please just walk in
And that is how we rebegin.
Katje Lily Ekaterina - missing since 21/6/2022


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